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My main reason for starting a blog was to have a more organized way of keeping track of all the blogs I like to read (crafts and so on). And then I was sold on the idea that it is such a good way to keep a journal. I know you can print out all your posts and such and make them into a type of "scrapbook". And I hope to do that someday...But it seems that "blogging" for me has been more of "updating" people what is going on with our family and it's mainly just what is going on with our KIDS. When I used to write in my journal (pen and paper...so 2009, I know), I would write more about feelings and daily things that I wanted to remember. I would also do a lot of writing about people who seriously bugged the crap out of me. :) So I've decided to really start "journal writing" and not just "blogging". And I wanted to apologize to anyone who may read my posts and get offended...but then I thought, "why should I apologize for someone reading MY journal entry?!?" So...tough shit if you get offended. LOL. I may just end up going private...except not letting anyone but me have access to the blog....we will see.

On to the journal writing!

Recently Jake and I have been butting heads on a few particular issues. Issue #1: Housework. Since I am a SAHM, I feel the responsibility to keep the house clean, feed the children, and cook dinner. But if I do all that, then what does Jake do to help out? Yes, he definitely brings home the bacon...pretty damn good bacon...but is that enough? Is it wrong to have him do "chores" and to help out around the house too? On one hand I think, HECK YEAH he should do chores around the house, I suffered all day with screaming kids and wiping butts! But then on the other hand, I think, Jake really does a lot to make sure we are provided for and frankly, some days (ok, most days), I sit around and do NOTHING. The joys of being a SAHM. :) I can decide if I want to shower at 8am or at 2pm after watching all the latest episodes of Grey's Anatomy. I can wear pj's all dang day and watch movies and go to the store whenever I want and the list goes on.... Since we've moved to Cali, my perspective has changed a lot on being a SAHM. Living in Logan, I dreaded waking up each day...I hated always picking up the house and doing the same crap. But then I realized...I can choose whether or not I want to do all that crap! I love it! Who says that I have to do the dishes? Or wash loads and loads of laundry? I can choose what I want to do everyday!! It's wonderful! Somedays Jake will come home and say, "what did you do all day??" And I simply reply, "absolutely nothing."

Well, now both my kids are sleeping...at the same time (which is rare). So I'm wrapping this up for now and will write some more thoughts later. :) Peace out Journal.