Sundays

Today was a very important Sunday for us...we made it on time to church!! YES! I swear, no matter how early we wake up and start getting ready...we are still rushing to get there on time. What is the deal with that?!?

First off, let me warn anyone that is super "churchy" that may be reading this post. Stop now. Haha...it's not that bad, but I'd prefer to be open with what I write on MY blog. I don't want anyone coming back saying they got offended by what they read on my blog. It's my blog. You choose to read it, you suffer the consequences. (insert evil laugh here)

Sundays always make me GRUMPY. Pissed off. Upset. Frustrated. Annoyed. You get the picture. First of all, our church is from 10:30-1:30....the strangest time for church EVER. It's during my kids' naps and during lunch. It's very inconvenient. And yes, I know that I will be blessed and yada yada yada for sacrificing my child's nap if I go to church. But it seriously SUCKS. So we try to pack a lunch every Sunday that we put in the church kitchen so we can hurry and eat right after the church block. That way, we can feed the kids and then on the drive home, they fall right to sleep.

So why do I get so grumpy on Sundays?? Number one, I'm tired. Number two, my kids are tired. Number three, I'm hungry. Number 4, It's boring. Number five, I have a hard time seeing other people do their callings when I know I could do them better. Uhhh...there I said it. Do you ever think that? or is that just like a "ball family" trait? (we call it "ballitis"...pronounced like meningitis...lol) Oh and so number six, I don't have a "real" calling. We have lived here for a year this month! ONE WHOLE FREAKIN YEAR...and we are on the Activities Committee. Granted, it is a calling...but we all know that Activities Committee is for those people that the Bishopric couldn't find a calling for elsewhere...so ya stick 'em on the committee. Although I do plan Fan-freaking-tastic parties and events...I would like a calling that I can actually DO things. We need something that requires us to come to church on Sundays. That is the hardest thing we have been facing now that we have lived here for a while.

At the beginning, it was so fun and "needed" to go to church to meet people. We didn't know a single person here...so of course church is the place to go! Now that we are settled, we really thought we would be more involved in our ward. But it just ain't happenin....and yes, I have told the Bish a few times, "I NEED a calling!!" Jake has never been the super active type when it comes to church. So we really need more purpose to go to church...and a calling is just the right cure. A REAL one. :) It's hard with Jake because first of all, he is not the biggest social butterfly...I mean, he's an Engineer...nuff said. lol. And he could care less about making new friends and catching up with friends in the ward. He feels he has no purpose to go to church. He's even thought about just having them bring the sacrament to our house. We can read scriptures here in our home. Why do we need to drive the ugliest 20 minute drive of our lives, to go to church in Mojave?

So everyday after church, we whine and complain about the fact that we have yet to get a calling more suited for our needs. Is that bad? I don't care. It's how we feel. And we need solutions. Ideas. Thoughts. Inspiration. To help us stay active and interested in attending church for good reason.

I could just keep going and going on this topic. All things I wish I could change and spice up in our ward. And maybe Jake will get lucky and get a calling soon so I don't have to keep pushing him to go to church. Do you ever feel this way? Is this really stupid to feel this way?